this is my life

soo the last day of day treatment for my anorexia is most likely tommarow and i feel like my life is being over ruled by the masses. there is so much to be done, people to be met, places to explore but all in time my loves, all in time.

i feel like i cant meet everyones needs but i dont know mine, my anxiety has given me a stomach ache for the past three days, im dying for a ciggarett and a shopping spree with someone elses money. oh god....

but i dont smoke and im broke.
thats right, i die

i just want everything to relax and the walls to fall down around me. relax or retreat...
i worry about money, its been my dying wish to ignore finances but i dont know how
its ingrained in my phyce... however you spell it.

STRESS...

im a little monster i know
xoxo
--VV

hello beautifull sunshine

looking for bird wallpaper is not as easy as it seems
sort of like how looking for yourself isnt quite easy either.

today i was searching online for the most perfect wallpaper for our kitchen but it was quite the challenge. i often feel like this searching within myself. there is a deep hole inside of me that has been tried to be filled by the many shapes of drugs and anorexia but can only be filled with love and joy in its purest forms.

Today i am thankfull for my dearest friends and the people who are willing to love me and listen to my stories. for my soponser and my family. for the sunshine and the song i finished on the guitar :)

goodnight lovelies
xoxo
-vintiage vixen <3

im back from the dead

hello darlings everywhere

i dissaperared for a while battling out my anorexia
it was a duel so all you who are strugging and need inspiration
FEAR NOT
it can be conquered and taken down.

i worked hard and am not ashamed of it
i left it in the cold like this winter

over and moved on.
today i have 51 days clean and sober from drugs alchohal and my ED

what are you celebrating lovelies?

do tell...?! (;

Winter Festivities

Ryan, isaac, & Micha :}

{love}

the rest of the outfit <3

thigh high socks
vintiage magnifine glass necklace

i die <3

xoxo
-S.

post christmas

i cant decide whats better... the terrible disaster that Christmas eve was or Christmas itself.
im sick now.
that says something about it.

work(christmas)work

thats what my life looks like... the money is good but it all goes back into bills and gas money... ello life

wanting hot tea and a hug <3

xoxo

-S.

Goodevening moon!
with the night getting dark so soon these days the chilly air bites to the bone
good friends, ciggaretts and coffee... {there's nothing better} <3
soon im going to be starting to construct my first line of clothing!
peace, love, sirenity
--S.

{Wearing} crown magnifine glass necklace... you'll see more of it... black cardigain, scarf as top.